(Sunday May 15, 2005)
First Service
A lady from Israel came to church today and told us about the hospital where she works. They rely heavily on volunteers to get the work done. I heard a voice telling me to "GO".
"God is that you? If you do want me to go, replace this fear and doubt with understanding."
I thought maybe this was just another one of my fanciful wandering wishes. Yes, I want to travel. Yes, I want to be used by God to help His people, but I never thought of Israel; and I'd given up the thought of nursing many years ago.
God, when do you want me to go? I still have a year left of high school. Maybe two depending on what happens this semester. What language do they speak over there?! How will I understand anyone? What about the war, when will it end? God I know that if this calling is from you, you will provide all that I need. Prepare my heart and give me strength.
Later during the second service:
I saw Gabriella and Linda get up to leave so I "excused myself" and ran after them. "Gabriella, Gabriella! Wait!" I told her what had happened in the first service and she was so happy to hear that. I asked her more about the situation and so many of my fears and questions were answered. I didn't know how or when I was going to go, but that question was answered. She said I hope to see you next year. All I need to do to get there is buy a plane ticket and fill some stuff out with my health and SIN numbers. Room and board and food is all payed for...plus you get about $130 (Cdn) (however much that is in shekels) a month as spending money! God is funny how he tells us to do something and has everything planned out already. We as humans of course doubt that anyone could be that organized. Truly He is Jehovah Jireh: The Lord Who Provides.
So, I guess I'll be trusting in God for a lot of things. A job or perseverance to keep the job I have, perseverance to stay in school next year and overall strength. A year is a long ways away, yet it will pass so quickly.
Joanna Rose
Verse 1
My heart is yearning and searching
For the special one to fill the voidMy flesh is longing and reachingFor a touch of love to satisfyBut Lord, You've promised
You'll always take care of meEvery need will be filled
In Your perfect timing
Only You can fill the emptiness
And the wanting I have for love
Chorus
Will I know him when I see him
Or will my heart be broken
By the one made for someone else?
Where do I go from here?
Father, I give you my life
Please give me your patience
Verse 2
Darling, I'm waiting for you
You are the only one for me
I pray for you
The man you are
And the man you are growing to be
I'm anticipating the day we meet
The day we join our lives together
The day we start our own family
Chorus
Will I know him when I see him
Or will my heart be broken
By the one made for someone else?
Where do I go from here?
Father, I give you my life
Please give me your patience
Verse 3
Although I don't know you right now
I'm hoping you'll see the love in my eyes
The love I have for you already
I praise God for the work He's doing in your life
I praise Him for the purpose and calling He's placed upon you
Chorus
Will I know him when I see him
Or will my heart be broken
By the one made for someone else?
Where do I go from here?
Father, I give you my life
Please give me your patience
Hey guys, this is my first time doing this stuff. I found this site thanks to a friend during class who was showing me her brother's blog. I think it's pretty cool to be able to post your thoughts and feelings and see what other humans out there are thinking. Well, right now, I'm thinking about sleep and food. I'm pretty excited to go to youth group tonite. Hopefully it will be fun. I'm really wishing for the weather to go back to being nice, not cold like it's been lately. I think we've all had enough cold weather to last us til next year. I've found that putting your thoughts down is really helpful; you don't get interrupted by the paper or screen, and you don't have to worry about the page saying something rude or stupid to what you have to say. Well, I guess that's all for now.
