A lady from Israel came to church today and told us about the hospital where she works. They rely heavily on volunteers to get the work done. I heard a voice telling me to "GO".
"God is that you? If you do want me to go, replace this fear and doubt with understanding."
I thought maybe this was just another one of my fanciful wandering wishes. Yes, I want to travel. Yes, I want to be used by God to help His people, but I never thought of Israel; and I'd given up the thought of nursing many years ago.
God, when do you want me to go? I still have a year left of high school. Maybe two depending on what happens this semester. What language do they speak over there?! How will I understand anyone? What about the war, when will it end? God I know that if this calling is from you, you will provide all that I need. Prepare my heart and give me strength.
Later during the second service:
I saw Gabriella and Linda get up to leave so I "excused myself" and ran after them. "Gabriella, Gabriella! Wait!" I told her what had happened in the first service and she was so happy to hear that. I asked her more about the situation and so many of my fears and questions were answered. I didn't know how or when I was going to go, but that question was answered. She said I hope to see you next year. All I need to do to get there is buy a plane ticket and fill some stuff out with my health and SIN numbers. Room and board and food is all payed for...plus you get about $130 (Cdn) (however much that is in shekels) a month as spending money! God is funny how he tells us to do something and has everything planned out already. We as humans of course doubt that anyone could be that organized. Truly He is Jehovah Jireh: The Lord Who Provides.
So, I guess I'll be trusting in God for a lot of things. A job or perseverance to keep the job I have, perseverance to stay in school next year and overall strength. A year is a long ways away, yet it will pass so quickly.